Yesterday, we all went to the University Fair. Some things are still unsolved. But I was talking to Anne yesterday and she told me how they (Anne and Pauline) have read my entry on the almost car accident. She said they were both very worried about me at that time cuz I sounded very upset. Thank you, gurls. *hugs~* I didn't know you gurls were so worried about me. I didn't tell cuz I didn't want to make you gurls worried too much.
You know, I beginning to think that there may be too many misunderstandings between us all and we never went to talk it out. And maybe cuz of this, we all eventually distant ourselves from each other and gradually not know what each other are thinking nemore.
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Why is it that when I told my Dad asked if I want to go back to HK for university ur first sentence was:"Ah, I wouldn't be able to survive going back." I wonder why you mentioned "I..." and not asking me if I will be going back and leave? I dunno, sometimes little things can hurt and disappoint ppl most.
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Donna, thank you so much for the CD ~ Lov Ya! (not in that way, of course. "He-He-He")
Everyone changes; Everything changes; Everyday changes.
Sitting here, looking around, I know it's gonna be different from the minute I hugged my brother good-bye as he was about to leave the door and fly back to HK. Seventeen years, he's been with me by my side. And the thought of not going to see him again until maybe next year's summer makes me want to cry. Ha, I know, he's not dying or nething. But still, I am gonna miss him.
No one is gonna be there to order sushi with me for "burn-nite"; No one will be there to sit beside me while I am driving and point things out for me; no one will be there to let me "jak". I know that it's a good thing that he went back to HK for good, but every time I remember that he's left, tears just feel like rushing out from my eyes.
I remember the last time he left was for university. But that was different from this time. It isn't until a year or two ago that we start growing close to each other like we once were when we were little. I feel that I haven't used the time before (this few years) to get to know him more and now he's gone.
I am beginning to think about going back to HK to work when I finish university. My Dad even asked me before if I want to go back to HK for university. But I said 'no.' Anyway, now that he's gone, I wish him all the best and pray that everything will go smoothly for him. *smiles*
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Ya know, my mom just came into this room a few hours ago. She said she brought me some stuffs fo rme and then handed me a pack of metallic/ glitter gel pens and a box of Neutrogena cleansing cloths. Awwwe.....I feel kinda guilty and bad rite now. My mom has always been so nice and caring for me yet I always make her mad and raise her voice to yell the crap out of me (of course for something that I did wrong. ^ = ^ ) I shall not sleep tonite until I clean up my entire room! Yup, yup! *nods to myself*
Tomorrow is the U Fair! And we are gonna go to Marche for snack and then Eatons Centre~!~!!! hehee ~~ so nice~ It's gonna be fun! Yupyup. Yet there are things which need to be done and dealt with. My true intention is not to get anyone hurt. But just that sometimes, some things that needs to be done, must be done and some things are hard to prevent from happening. May we be brave and wise to confront it.
